The Smith's Day

It was so crazy, completly insane. My friend Karyee and I were excited about watching Mr and Mrs Smith as she is a huge fan of Angelina Jolie. So we decided today we're going to see it.

Sadly, today is heavily rainning all the day and it looked like it's going to stop. Rain outpouring outside made noise on the roof that I hated so much. But we made up our mind we should go no matter how terrible the weather was.

Down the parking lane, I couldn't turn on the power of my motorbike which sucked. Because my bike was really sick during the rainy days. Then I gotta be carried by Karyee.

This ride was really really insane but exciting. We went on the roads which were rough and irregular on the surface always had small rocks and even a pond full of dirty water in it. Karyee drove it particularly carefully but unfortunately we both got wet when we reached the theater. We looked like disaster. Then we brought tickets and got popcorn and soda, and went straight for Mr and Mrs Smith.

My personal critic is B for this movie. Action/comedy movie is supposed to be ok and moderate. But Angelina is soooooo hot and her pair of long legs are very sexy. She's inevitably got the award of the global sexiest woman. She earns this credit.

Decision

Recently I come up with this idea : I'm not going to get married.

Is it weird? I don't want to marry to any guy. Many girls are dreaming of their wonderful wedding with their Prince Charming. OMG. There's no Prince Charming in this world. So that's why I don't want to get married, or engage in any relationship. I'm too practical.

Both men and women are in love. But when the reality is hitting on them, they're no longer in love. You just can't always be in love. And I don't wanna waste my time to deal with relationship's troubles. Maybe at the early stage of the relationship, we are very sweet and not fighting. After that, everything changes. I have no time and energy dealing with this kind of stuff. The troubles will be totally ruining my life. I've been seeing these situations all the time from my friends to my aunts. And I don't have time to concern about the probability of someone hurt me and I have no room for this right now.

So I will be single in my entire life. No husband. No mother. No children. No grandchildren.

Despite the fact that it's kind of my decision which may sound pretty intense, God is arranging my life, putting people and things in the appropriate position and ruling out something I don't deserve. Eventually, I just give all my stuffs to Him. Let him draw my picture.

I still have an exam of calculus. My mind sucks. I don't want to study. I don't want to analyse question. I've entered the vacation stage. And my head is spinning, hurting me a lot and I don't want to concentrate on my textbook. Suck. Suck. Suck. Because of losing my consciousness, I give up writing it now.

Complete One Of My Chapters In My Life

This weekend is ending, which marks that I accomplish one of my chapters in my life --- a full-time student from kindergarden to university.

It's a tough four-year university but I learn a lot of different things such as langauage, courage, independence, confidence and many many things. I don't like this place too much and I even don't adapt to the culture. Should someone ask me if I've enjoyed these 3 years, I would say I do because I do learn lots of things and seen different stuffs I've never seen before including something bad.

Two years ago, I decided that I had to go back to HK when I was still in the university. I realised I was not able to survive in here for even one minute, which was terrible for me. But I get over it, I have to finish what I started and I notice that I am a pretty tough and strong person. My experience got me like this kind of person. And I'm very glad about it.

Saturday was a graduation ceremony. My friends and I were taken a lot of photo throughout the campus. So tired actually. And my ex-roomie was coming too and she gave me a bunch of flowers. Thanks you so much. They were beautiful. She said she would visit HK and find me. It's great anyway.

At night something extraordinary happened which was unbelievable and also so rollercoaster. My roomie's family were coming here for celebrating her graduation. They were supposed to head for a dinner that night. So four members of her family including her parents and two sisters and she went for dinner in a restaurant. First of all, four of them were getting on a cab to restaurant along with my roomie riding her motorbike. She arrived first but her family didn't get there after waiting for more than 20 minutes as they should arrive earlier than she did. She was so worried and upset and called me what she was going to do coz' she couldn't contact any one of her family in the cab. She wanted me to call her another sister in HK and tell her to try to call up her sister in the cab because her cell phone could not make any international call. But it couldn't work cos' her sister's cell phone.was turned off.

My roomie was almost crying. She didn't know where the cab driver took them. I told her to remain calm and we tried to figure out what else we could do. I told her that she should tell the restuarant owner or waiters to notice a group of 4 people and called her if he did and then rushed back to the hotel where they stayed in and waited. I expected that the cab driver was getting them to a wrong destination. So if her family acknowledged my roomie didn't come there, they would probably go back to the hotel. In the meantime, I stayed at home and tried to comfort her at phone and tell her sister in HK what it's going on.

Then I was trying to call someone to bring me to the hotel for comforting my roomie, however, no one I could reach at that moment. (because my motorbike stuck in campas and it was rainning out there) I was blaming ' What the hell is going on? ' When I needed someone's help, no one could be reached??? I was so nervous too. Nothing could be done. Nobody could be reached. Whatelse I could do this time. But one thing I could do was PRAY.

Nothing was happening and my roomie was waiting alone in the hotel. So I made up my mind that I should go to get my car on foot and head straight to the hotel. When I walked down the house, all of the sudden, I got my call from my roomie which her family were back to the hotel. Really the cab driver got them to a wrong place and they were staying in there for 45 minutes!!

Wooooo. It is a rollercoaster story, make people upset but memorable. Let me know that many challenging and unbelievable things would happen in my life but God is an eternality. Thanks God. Withour him, we are not comforted, we are not calm and we are not in peace and safety.

What do you find in your life?

Life is full of darkness, sometimes we feel doubtful about if God is caring of us. But what we need to do is never give up and move on. We MUST see the brightness of Christ and the hope in life. This is what we have to go through in our life.

I believe I have a mission in my life that God gives me. I don't know. I am always guessing something bad are going to happen to me like car accident, getting disease or blindness. I've not so far gone through something painful and terrible. Maybe just some lonely time and being cheated incident and self-struggled challenge. But they were not very big deals, I've not been in up and down.

I even consider myself as a kind of cool person. Not that cool. I mean I am not really caring people and always treating people in the 'whatever' attitude. But now I start realizing that I have a specific mission that I have to take care of the people surrounding me. Not only my family I should be responsible for, but my friends and other casual friends who are always depressed and emotionally distraught by life always seem no way out of their troubles when they face the problem.

I start considering myself as an encouraging tool of God. Being humble and positive, sometimes I always let people down. I know it. But by the experience of my friends, I've learnt that too many things the human being can't handle, no matter where we live. God seems to put some people in my life who usually have a trouble from breakup to depression. At first, I am very glad that I can help them but at the time I don't get used to caring people about solving the same problem for years, and in the meantime some new troubles are added into their life. Very often, they're physically and emotionally distraught and losing faith in God. And I start realizing to do something to help them by the message of God. It's not somethings that I just casually care about them, I need my sensitive side to encourage them. Once time my pastor even told me if it's hard to carry somebody's burden. At the time, I didn't even know I was carrying somebody's burden and then I knew I had to do something for them, not just verbally caring about them but physically help them. This is my responsibility and this is doing for God. I need to do that without calculation.

One thing that's why God give this mission to me is my personalities are gradually turned into positive and energetic way. I mean this is a big change for me. I used to be a negative and not very happy person. After acknowledging there're too many uncertainties and disasters and injustice in this world, I am learning to lift my life, everything to God's hand. You know, I'm always worried everything I care but too many thing that I can't hold. And everything is up to God. I learn to appreciate what I get and what I go through in my life whether it's a bad or good thing.

Sometimes I act demandingly to people then I got to learn selflessness.

Sometimes I condemn people harshly then I got to learn tolerance.

Sometimes I am hopeless then I got to learn there's always hope in God.

Sometimes I give up then I got to learn to move on.

Sometimes I hate people then I got to learn love.

Super Super Cute Hayden 

SuperSuper Hot Hayden 

Isolation & Confusion

Thanks Andrea for celebrating my b-day and having a dinner with me. I'm very happy about that. I know we both have to be going through a situation of confusion for a while.But I'm sure we are able to figure it out. Thanks again. I like to share my opinions with you and I'm glad to hear your thoughts too. This is a great conversation.

Bonnie and Josephine are kind of losing their passion and interest to God. They have felt that the interaction between brothers and sisters in the church got a problem. Bonnie personlly felt that a group of people were isolated by a group of people who had no idea to build up this isolation. It seems the isolating group always have their own friendship, talking their own jokes and scheduling their own activities, which cannot allow the isolated group to join them. I mean the social relation in church is pretty complicated.

The top priority of church is spreading the message of God and allow people to know God. In the meantime, brothers and sisters are supposed to build a harmonious environment. We're supposed to love each other. We're supposed to care each other. But the problem is, not everyone feel this way.

Josephine even wondered if the action of caring people was genuine?? sincere?? heartfelt?? She even thought people being so nice to others because of God was ingenuine and should be blamable as it wasn't from the heart. I don't understand. What's wrong with that??

"strengthening the disciples and encouraging them to remain true to the faith. ' We must go through many hardships to enter the kingdom of God.'" (Acts 14:22)

I was reading bible. The scripture was shocking me because I was the person who was described in bible. This experience must be Holy Spirit in my heart reminding me of being a humble person. I didn't know when to start considering myself as a smart person possessing knowledge that I could be better than others. I'm such an idiot. The wisdom, knowledge and everything is from God. We, the human being, are just discovering the nature that God made. But we think we create something and try to get rid of God and want to be a superior in the earth. Then we literally make our decision to rule this world by controlling everything.

Thank you God for caring me every minute. He doesn't move his eyes on me, reminding me of being a lovely children of Him and not forsaking me from my rebellion.

"We know that we all possess knowledge. Knowledge puffs up, but love builds up. The man who thinks he knows something does not yet know as he ought to know. But the man who loves God is knows by God"

(1 Corinthians 8:2-3)

Happy B-day for myself.

12:10am. It's my b-day after 10 minutes.

Live is running in speed of light.

I'm sitting in front of my computer, listening Coldplay's new album X&Y. It's so comfortable but also very quite.

When you try your best, but you don't succeed.
When you get what you want, but not what you need.
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep.
Stuck in reverse.

Keira Knightley 

Keira Knightley 

After graduation party

I have to say everything was so fine, everyone was fabulous.

When the graduation party was held in the hotel which was my first time hosting a party in my junior year, my friends and I were so happy about that and we were taken photo where we used to stand and striking the same pose as we did it 3 years ago. It was a memorial night cos' we all didn't know when we have this chance to gather together and have a party and have fun. After that, we need to face our future. Someone has decided to continue the academic, someone will find jobs and someone, most of them, hasn't yet figured out what to do. But I guess, it doesn't matter, they finally figure what they want and set up their goals.

The happiest thing is I meet many friends who I have not met for a couple of years. I'm so glad to meet you all. We were talking all night long and laugh and talked about the stupid things we did. This is hilarious.

I was so happy that I ran into Stephenine in the party cos' it's been sooooooo long not to meet you, even we both go to the same faculty. She becomes a beautiful girl but still has a little low self-esteem. I told her she looked gorgerous but she's a little bit embarrassed that someone praised her. Anyway, it's great to meet her again and we probably will never meet each other because I'm going to be back to HK and she continues pursuing her academic future. Good luck for her!

The other thing is my friends and I have known her boyfriends is loaded. But we didn't imagine how loaded he was. The party was over and then I suggested our several close friends went to school for taking pictures. Then we went and when it finished, Stephenine's boyfriend came to bring her home. When he arrived, all of us were SHOCKED!!! His boyfriend was driving a super sexy GM Pontiac Solstice. WOOOOO! Are you kidding me? His boyfriend's just a student. omg. His family must be Bill Gate and gives him lots of money. This car costs millions of dollars. What the hell???? But I was totally obsessed with his car. I want to drive it. The outline is very smooth and the color is icy. I love this car. SEXY!

Recent obsession is Coldplay's Speed of Sound.